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Tonight I did some quantum jumping with Craig Whitewood-Khan. This is a regular Sunday thing and a lot of fun too.

However, tonight was a deep and powerful experience which caused me to realise how essential integrating lost pieces of my soul is.

In 2015, in this life, I nearly died of acute pancreatitis where a gall stone got stuck in a tract. Painful I can tell you.

After 9 days nil by mouth in hospital, and having Doctors shove large pipes down my trachea (not a good look) and various other things in other orifices along with intravenous morphine and Lord knows what else, my gall bladder was removed. ("3 wheels on my wagon, but I'm still rolling along...")

I realise now that a part of me died back then.

On another parallel time line, apparently I left the planet at that time and tonight, found that part of myself floating aimlessly through space.

Shocked at my own apparent physical death and the fact that I was just floating around like a lost balloon, I asked myself what had happened and invited myself to rejoin 'me' on the current timeline. Both versions of me came back in through the door and integrated.

Another piece of my soul back together.

Interestingly, scientists have just discovered:

"Usually, observations of quantum entanglement are made between pairs of photons or electrons that are identical in nature. But now, for the first time, the BNL team has detected pairs of dissimilar particles undergoing quantum entanglement." (

I find this interesting as I reclaim pieces of my quantum self and I wonder what else might be creating some either positive or negative effect that I am unaware of as yet. I wonder if some weak part of my being has actualised in some quantum entanglement somewhere and is out of alignment, rather like the soul I found tonight, just aimlessly floating through space, so lost? If everything effects everything everywhere, all at once then I'd better get my skates on and go a bit deeper with the spiritual cleansing and deep clean the temple! Someone hand me a scrubbing brush.

There are times when all I can do is surrender to creator and ask for complete integration.

Perhaps my awareness or intelligence doesn't extend as far as I'd like it to? Perhaps I just don't know what to do for the best?

Calling on that which is greater than 'me', greater than the little 'i' is all I am able to accomplish. What a truly humbling experience.

Yes, in order to really move, transform and integrate, we can't just move the furniture around the same old prison, paint the bars gold and upcycle the decor. No. We need to unlock the door from the inside and get out of the cage, and once out of the cage, turn on our navigation system.

Mathew 7- 13 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 [a]Because narrow is the gate and [b]difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

The narrow gate, it could be said, is the pathway to the pineal - our God channel - and, one could say that the pineal can not open properly without the heart being fully open. The energy will not rise if it gets stuck at the heart energy centre. So once again it all comes back to love. No love = no ascension.

My intention is to consciously integrate all parts of my being in all dimensions of time and space on every timeline. I can't do this unless I love my self.

Loving myself is a lifetime's mission and means complete forgiveness, total compassion, gentleness and so on. (Show me one human that doesn't struggle with themselves sometimes.) So, it will be a great year and one I shall always remember owing to tonight's inner experience.

Wishing you all well, wherever you are in the universe xx

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